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Today's proving to be sort of difficult. I was doing so well last week then I had one bad meal, felt guilty, and essentially gave up. I felt really bloated that day so I skipped my workout, then the next day I didn't have time and in the days after I just felt too sad to do it.

The week before, I'd gotten down to respectable weight, my stomach was completely flat and hard. After the binge I felt like a pregnant woman, but the bloat eventually went down. I bought a crop top in celebration that I planned to wear with high-waisted pants.

I tried wearing it today. My stomach is so round and squishy now. Even with my high waisted jeans squeezing the fat down, there was a huge bulge in the middle. My arms have gotten flabby and disgusting. Not only that, but I've been feeling really bad about my nose lately. I used to hate it and then got over it and didn't care, but something must have triggered me recently and I can't stop looking at it and thinking about it. I want a nose job so bad.

Anyways, I was supposed to have dinner with friends tonight but that's not happening now. I need to starve again and workout everyday until I'm back to where I was just last week!! I hate this yo-yoing.