Control

So, today kind of sucked food-wise, but I don't feel guilty about it for once. I think it's because I didn't eat out fo some lack of control; I ate because I chose to. In a non-negative way. I didn't eat all day because I knew I was going out with my mom and figured we'd stop somewhere for a bite to eat, but my brother ended up tagging along so it became more of a sit-down meal. I really love going out with the two of them because they're both so easy-going and truly bring out the best in me. Unfortunately, both of them have noticed that I haven't been eating, so I decided to take it upon myself to prove to them I'm not...being deliberate about it? I'm not sure. Anyway, I split a thin crust pizza and dessert with my brother and we each had a beer. It was a very casual affair and really fun. I admit, I did consider excusing myself to purge but decided against it. I felt it'd be a hidden slap in the face to my mom who works so hard. So I didn't. We shopped afterward and now I'm at home with a mug of green tea. I bought a lot of new jewellery thanks to a gift card. So, all in all, a good day.